1st Day of September

How did that happen??  I had a slew of things I wanted to do with the grandkids as they were out of school.  Before I knew it, school started and I didn’t get any of them done!!   No trips to Omaha’s zoo or to the state parks.  No fun in the sun.  Granted some days were quite humid, but still!!  Really Sad!

So school has started and our schedule is getting full.  I. LOVE. IT.   The more time with the grand littles, the more the pain hides away as the distraction is what I need!!  Actually what hubby & I both need as he’s been in pain also with his back.

It’s amazing how the pain takes a back seat to the things we do and time we spend with the kids.  Our minds are busy involved with them.  But when we are home alone, oh boy, does our body let us know that the pain we suppressed is rearing it’s ugly head, once again.  Oh well!!  A part of our lives!

How did your summer go?  Do anything interesting?  I’m not sure what we did.  It came & went so fast, that I’ve only got glimpses of memory.  Our friends and sisters came to town.  This month our middle daughter comes out to visit.  I’m so looking forward to it!!

November my sis is flying us to Phoenix for a Thanksgiving family reunion with our Stockton family.  Then we are driving to Las Vegas and will be there for the week after turkey day.   I’m excited to be going.  Not excited about the travel part, but I’m sure I’ll get over it!!

Not much else is knew here.  Hope you all are having a wonderful day!!

Social Media

How do you use your personal social media?  Is it for posting pictures of family & friends?  Spewing your anger?  Venting your opinions?

How would your social media presence change if what you posted was meant to love others versus promoting your pride, positions, and accomplishments?

Interesting question!  I admit, I do have my ranting sessions on this web page.  Sometimes this is my only rant venue, ranting as Dobegil.  However, does this questions make you go … hummmm?

God gave me humor.  It may be a little twisted and quirky but it’s from Him.  So I try to use my humor in most cases.  I’m not 100% spot on, but I am going to try and be more humorous!

So … How would your social media presence change if what you posted was meant to love others versus promoting your pride, positions, and accomplishments?  Leave me a comment with your thoughts.

How do animals blend into the desert?

With Camel-Flage

What’s new?

Other than my last post being in April?  That’s bad, I was trying to do better at posting but I’ve been lazy.

My Scleroderma continues to be a pain.  About 4 weeks ago, I was put on Methotrexate.  I was scared to death to take the first dose because of all the bad side effects!  Thankfully, my doctor has treated this disease for over 30 years and he knows how to prescribe this drug.  I take 3 pills on Wednesday and 3 pills on Thursday.  The rest of the week, I take Folic Acid to help cut down on the side effects.  So this is my 4th week on this drug.  On the days I take this drug, I can feel weak.  I’ll sit down or lie down until the energy returns.  I also drink, 2 bottles of Boost on the 2 days I take the drug.  I really like the Rich Chocolate.

How is this drug supposed to help with Scleroderma?  Well, from what I understand, it’s supposed to help with the pain and itchiness of my skin.  Is it working?  I’m not sure.  But it’s still too early, it can take a few months before we know.  The bad part is they have to constantly moniter my blood to see what adverse effects my body may have to Methotrexate.  Before I started this drug, I asked the prayer warriors on Facebook to pray to protect me from these side effects.  Prayers do wonderful things!!

I still have issues with my lungs having 65% function, so that will also be something they watch.  I have brain fog dyslexia, no not a real thing, but something I deal with.  My brain gets a little confused and I’ll say or think dyslexic.  Here’s an example:  I went to step around my son’s dog, saw her ear and told myself to NOT step on her ear and I stepped on her ear, causing her to squeal and jump up.  Another example, I’ll think in my brain correctly, but say the opposite.  Or it will take me a while to think of a word or name of something.  Yes, I’m getting older, but it feels like pulling teeth to get my brain and mouth to coordinate.

There are days that I want to just give up.  BUT, that really isn’t an option.  The only way I get through each day is my faith in God and relationship with Jesus.  He is the reason I get through my days with this disease.  He helps me through the struggle, the pain, the frustration and keeps me from giving up and quitting.   The other one that gets me through this, is my husband.  He’s always there for me and does what he can to massage the pain from my arms, back & neck.  The ones that help me forget about the aches and pains are my grandchildren.  Spending time with them helps get my mind off of this body!

This is a disease that I wouldn’t wish on anyone, however, if you find yourself diagnosed with this disease and would like to talk, let me know in the comments.

If you are new to Scleroderma, click here for a site that will give you tips for living with this disease.

Friday, April 3, 2015

This morning I was pleasantly surprised by a text that the kids wanted to come over.  As I got out of bed and dressed, they were already knocking on the door.  They had run over to our place.  LOL … that was too funny.  We talked for a little bit, then watched the recorded Dancing with the Stars while our grandson was playing a game on the computer.  Then they switched, our granddaughter played on the computer and he watched the turtles.  Once grandpa was up, we went to lunch at Raising Cains.  If you have a Raising Cains in your area and they are running an event about used cell phones, well, that’s a pretty good deal.

The deal runs through the end of April.  If you turn in an old used cell phone, and buy one meal & a drink, you get another meal of equal or lesser value free  (but you will need to buy a drink for the free meal.)  We turned in two used cell phones and got two free meals, such a great deal!  Why do they want used cell phones?  I’m so glad you asked.  They recycle them and in turn get calling cards to send to the troops out of the country to call home.  I told you it was a good deal!!

I’ve been reading a book titled, Heaven, by Randy Alcorn.

What is your idea of Heaven?  Boring or exciting?   What is your idea of hell?

In reading the first three chapters of Heaven, I desire to have my final destination to be Heaven.  I would not want to be in hell as “…the wicked suffer terribly, are fully conscious, retain their memories and reasoning, long for relief, cannot be comforted, cannot leave their torment and are bereft of hope. (Luke 16:19-31)…”  “Christ says the unsaved ‘will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth’ (Matthew 8:12)”

There are many times that the Bible describes hell as a place of weeping and gnashing of teeth.  That doesn’t sound like a pleasant way to spend eternity to me.  I’d rather be in Heaven where I am with family, being loved, and most of all, with my Savior.  I can’t think of a better way to spend eternity.

In the dark, all alone, in pain, fully conscious and longing for relief that never comes, weeping and gnashing of teeth … um, no thanks, being in the light and love and peace and no pain in a new body is where I want to be.  Easter weekend – Thank You, Jesus, for suffering and paying a debt that I could not pay and thinking of me when you were suffering and dying on the cross.

He was despised and rejected—
    a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief.
We turned our backs on him and looked the other way.
    He was despised, and we did not care.

Yet it was our weaknesses he carried;
    it was our sorrows that weighed him down.
And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God,
    a punishment for his own sins!
But he was pierced for our rebellion,
    crushed for our sins.
He was beaten so we could be whole.
    He was whipped so we could be healed.
All of us, like sheep, have strayed away.
    We have left God’s paths to follow our own.
Yet the Lord laid on him
    the sins of us all.

Isaiah 53:3-6 NLT

Wednesday, April 1st, 2015

We’ve spent a lot of time with the older grandkids this weekend.  Our oldest granddaughter walked over to our place and spent a few hours with us on Saturday.  Our grandson spent all day Sunday at our place.  Then Tuesday we picked them up from school to spend time with them after school and then hubby took the granddaughter to volleyball.  After, we picked her up, wandered and then dinner before taking her home.  We also got to spend a few minutes with the baby and the parents.  It was a good afternoon/night and I was in bed by 11pm.  LOL, but I had a good nights sleep.  YAY!

While writing, I’m also watching the live safari.  They are with one of the leopards, Kaynuma.  Earlier I was watching his dad, Mvuala.  Beautiful kitties!!

Today was the last day of my Simplicity devotional.  These were the questions to ponder:  What legacy are you leaving behind?  On your final day on this earth, when you look into the rear view mirror of your life, will you see a legacy that brings a sense of deep satisfaction?

I needed to look up the word Legacy.  This is what I found on http://www.merriam-webster.com/:

Definition of LEGACY

1:  a gift by will especially of money or other personal property :  bequest
2:  something transmitted by or received from an ancestor or predecessor or from the past <the legacy of the ancient philosophers>

Examples of LEGACY

  1. She left us a legacy of a million dollars.
  2. He left his children a legacy of love and respect.
  3. The war left a legacy of pain and suffering.
  4. Her artistic legacy lives on through her children.

I’m glad I looked this up as I wasn’t sure what legacy really meant with regards to the devotional questions.   I hope I am leaving a legacy for the grandkids.  We don’t get to see the other grandkids often, but at least with these, we are able to leave a legacy of love &  hopefully respect for them.

So, how would you answer these questions?

Thursday, 3/26/2015

Yesterday I made a pot roast in the crock pot.  It was so so easy and very tasty!  I took a 2-3 pound chuck roast, lightly browned both sides, put it in a warm crock pot, emptied a french onion soup packet on top of the roast, poured in a 20 ounce of coca cola all over the roast, added a small bag of small new potatoes (washed, of course,) a bag of baby carrots and one onion cut in 6 sections, put the cover on and let it cook on low for 6-8 hours until meat is tender OR on high for 4-6 hours, again until meat is tender.  For thicker sauce, I mixed water and about a tablespoon of flour until the flour was dissolved and poured it into the pot, stirred and turned it to high so it would thicken a bit and serve.  It was yummy.  If you want less liquid, you can use a 12 oz can of soda.  What we’ll have for dinner tonight … well, I have no idea!  HAH

I have two devotionals that I read in the morning.  They both are on YouVersion and if you want the app, click here.  The first devotional talked about work.  About changing the culture at your work.  It reminded me of Michael Jackson’s song, “Man In The Mirror,” because if you want to make a change, you have to start with yourself.  I’ve come from a bad experience working at a church.  Not all church staff are humble, me included.  So today’s devotion was a good reminder.  It is a good reminder to take 15 minutes before you drive onto your work’s property to settle and reset your mind to change your attitude, even if you are going to be facing one of the most difficult days of your week.  Now that I’m not working, I can apply this everywhere I go: doctors office, grocery store, hospital, etc.  How  many times have you almost been hit with a cart in the store?  As I walk with a cane, it seems like the cane is a beacon for people to aim their carts AND act frustrated at me.  I always say that I hope they do not come down with a debilitating disease that will leave them walking slower and needing some type of assistance.  So, yes, I do need to take those few minutes to reset before I enter the store.  I have to go to the store today … oy!

The verse of the day was Psalm 84:10:

“A single day in Your courts is better than a thousand anywhere else!  I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked.”

I asked myself, “Is this true of me?”  What does that really mean to me?  Do I covet the good life of the wicked?  What does a day in Your courts mean?

I do wish I had an unlimited income so I could live in a big house with a cleaning person and take outrageous vacations, traveling the world.  But does that mean I would rather live the good life in the homes of the wicked?

I got to thinking to myself, “Self, what is one day in His court?”

His court is Heaven.  To spend one day in Heaven, with my Father and hearing the never ending voices of the angels worshiping and singing praise; OR Being the gatekeeper in Heaven at the gates and catching a glimpse of all that. is so much better than the best day of a good life with unlimited income.   The thought of how relaxing and stress free that would be to be in His presence and light.   For the commentary, you can click here.

That house and vacations just don’t seem that desirable any more.  I love the promise He has given me, an eternity with Him.

Sorry I’ve been so lax on the postings.  I haven’t had any motivation to write … anything.  But a friend, S4L, reminded me today that I should write again and that if I wait for motivation, I won’t write again.  You know what, she’s right, so here I write … lol

Life in the flat lands has been fine.  It’s starting to warm up and feeling springy.  It wasn’t much of a winter, which I’m thankful for, however, it doesn’t help with the dry conditions.  There have already been several wild fires, which is strange.  When we lived here before, it was so moist out, there were no wild fires.  Weird to come back to a dry Midwest.  It will be interesting to see what the summer will be like, however, I can wait to see that and just enjoy the temps that are now.

On St. Patrick’s day, we picked up our grandkids from school in our green van.  My hubby had a tee shirt with a green plaid vest & bow tie screen printed on it, in addition to wearing a green bow tie.  I had on a green sweatshirt with green shamrock clips in my hair and green beads.  Our grandson made it to the van first and said, “Whoa, that’s a lot of green you’re wearing!”  As our granddaughter was tied up and taking longer, hubby got out of the van to wait for her.  The car behind us saw him and started laughing at the getup.  She finally arrived and tried not to react.  Darn, she’s getting to that age where she tries to not react to the crazy things we do.  I guess we’ll have to try harder!!

My oldest sister has me hooked on National Geographic’s Live Wild Safari, which is online twice a day, morning and night drive.  You can only watch it online through the live feed.  As I won’t ever physically be able to go to So. Africa to go on safari, it is so much fun to watch, when I can and when there is no problem with the feed, the wild animals they come in contact with.

There have been several leopards they follow.  They are such beautiful kitties!  One has quite the personality, while the other that is the same age, just ignores the vehicle & camera.  They walk right next to the vehicle and just look at the guide.  The one with the personality actually charged the vehicle and stopped close, just because he could.  It even looked like he was chuckling after he did it.

Today they went to the hyena den and found the mom and three cubs.  It was late afternoon there and starting to get dark.  The mom was getting ready to hunt, leaving the cubs at the den.  The guide said they were going to leave the cubs as they didn’t want to call any predators attention to the cubs while mom was gone.  They were so cute.  Before mom left, one of the babies walked right up to the vehicle and looked at the camera.

One never knows what will happen on each drive.  If interested, the live feed is from 10am – 1pm Eastern time and 12am – 3am Eastern time, everyday.    It is quite fun as you can interact with the driver/guide through twitter or email.  Click here if you’d like to check it out.  During off hours, they run a loop of what is seen on that day’s drive.

Watching these animals and how they survive as part of the food chain, I’m reminded of a passage I read this morning:  Matthew 6:25-34 – Do not worry.

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

We humans are much more valuable to God than any bird or animal.  If we truly follow Christ and have Jesus in our hearts, there is no reason to worry about anything as He provides.  The question is, can you surrender and wait in faith for His provision?