What a day! I’m frustrated, tired, & mad, however, not like I was earlier. Days like today make me wish I was already at my 5-15 year plan. My walk down on Lakeshore Blvd didn’t help either. It just made me more tired, sweaty and smelly … LOL … sorry TMI!
When I left the office to pick up lunch, I was yelling and arguing with God. What I thought was a one sided conversation, proved me wrong. As I was yelling and telling Him my frustrations, anger, and all, I had an interesting experience. It felt like He was sitting next to me waiting for me to finish screaming at Him. I felt like He was asking if I was finished yet so He could wrap me up in His arms. All the wind left my anger sails.
I was able to go back to work a little calmer. However, I was still harboring the anger and frustrations. I just could not let it go. Now that I am home and not around people or traffic, I finally feel better. I also feel ashamed for yelling, but it is so nice to know I can yell at Him and when I’m done, He forgives me. He has so much work to do in me before I have that much grace and mercy to show others.