If you can’t tell by some of the things I’ve posted and the music/videos I have displayed, I am “one of those people.” So who is one of those people anyway. Well, let’s just say, yes, I believe in God, I believe Jesus is my Savior and I believe through Jesus’ blood, my sins have been washed away.
I also want to apologize to any of you that have been treated badly or judged by other Christians. I cannot apologize for their specific actions or motives, however, I can apologize for the way you have been treated. Through this blog, I just want to be as real and raw to show you I am human and yes, I can make mistakes. I am not above anyone else. We are human and we all make mistakes. I’m not here to defend Christianity, I just want to tell you my story.
I used to be so restless that I could not sit still. I would be sitting and I felt like they had to go somewhere. I also felt so depressed, like being suffocated by a huge dark cloud. Feeling I wasn’t good enough for anything and so insecure. I always asked myself, this is it? My little dark corner of the world was it? Just shoot me now! I was very mean. I didn’t have nice thoughts about people and I always thought I was right and it was the other person that was the jerk. I was consumed with envy, anger, selfishness and pride.
About a year and a half ago, I let Jesus in and an amazing thing happened. I stopped feeling restless and I had a thirst to learn more about Him. The dark cloud started to leave until I finally felt like I was worth something. I realized I was loved. I’m not saying my life is all peaches and cream, however, I now know I have a loving power inside me, helping me through all the trials that come my way. I know He has alot of work still to do in me, but I welcome His work. I try to see the lessons I’m being taught by whatever goes on in my life. I look at things different. If someone says something that has a strong impact on me, then I realize it is something I was meant to hear.
I just felt I had to get this out in the open … I guess, in a sense, I am coming out. Not hiding in my other blog, but coming out in the open and letting you all know what I believe. I am still the same person whose been writing in this blog since July.
If I have touched just one person by all this, then being raw and real in the blogsphere world was well worth it.
I promise, we will get back to the regular broadcasting soon. I just had to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening … hmmm, I guess I should say, Thanks for reading, especially if you made it all the way to the end of this post! Thanks, my friend!