Tag you’re it

Well, sweetiegirlz has tagged me in this … so here are my answers

1. Where is your cell phone?   On the desk

2. Your hair?  Pigment Challenged

3. Your mother?  Deceased

4. Your father?  Deceased

5. Your favorite food?  Pizza or Tacos

6. Your dream last night?  I don’t remember

7. Your favorite drink?  MonaVie Active … I hear you can make a Mona-tini, just add Vodka or gin … hmmm, I may have to try that

8. Your dream/goal?  To quit my job, because I have a better income with my business

9. What room are you in?  Living Rm

10. Your hobby?  Don’t really have just one – just many small ones

11. Your fear?  Something happening to one of my children/grandchildren

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?  Not having to worry about money and traveling

13. Where were you last night?   Home

14. Something that you aren’t?   Single – lol, that’s the only thing that came to mind

15. Muffins?  anything with fruit and/or cream cheese

16. Wish list item?  I have to limit it to one?   okay … let’s go big – Motorhome

17. Where did you grow up?  Las Vegas, NV – yuppers, sin city itself

18. Last thing you did?   make fried egg sandwiches

19. What are you wearing?   Sleep shirt and silky long johns – yes I know it is almost 3pm …

20. Your TV?   old

21. Your pets? Dog

22. Friends? Few

23. Your life?  getting focussed

24. Your mood?  level

25. Missing someone?  Children and grandchildren

26. Vehicle?  Truck

27. Something you’re not wearing?  Shoes

28. Your favorite store?  closed for good

29. Your favorite color?  Black, Blue, Red 

30. When was the last time you laughed? Yesterday

31. Last time you cried? just the other day

32. Your best friend?  Hubby

33. One place that I go to over and over? work

34. One person who emails me regularly?  no one

35. Favorite place to eat?  Casino Buffet

 LOL … well, there ya have it. 

I hope y’all are having a good weekend.  The weather here is clear but cold.  I ventured out yesterday with a friend.  We wondered around one of the outdoor malls and gave into the sales at Michaels, then I caved into purchases at the Dollar Store.  We had lunch at Chili’s thanks to a gift card she had in her wallet.  Geez, why don’t I carry my gift cards there, that way I’d have them should I want to use them.   LOL … because that makes total sense, and I … don’t.

It was a fun morning.  By the time I got home, I was ready to have a siesta.  Today, hubby and I were going to venture out, but he woke up feeling terrible, still.  So, I spent the time in stillness, then in training videos.   That is why I am still in my jammies.  Didn’t have a good reason to change, since I was just studying on the computer. 

I will be getting dressed as I am going to church for service.  It may put everyone in shock, being there two weekends in a row.  Last weekend I snuck in and out, afraid the roof was going to cave in.  But, alas, I made it out unscathed.

I’m trying my best to fight off whatever it is hubby has.  I have a nagging head ache that I hope will go away soon.   Maybe once I get ready it will disappear.

Not much else is new on this homefront.  We are plugging along … not much else you can do.

Y’all have a great rest of Saturday and if I’m not yackin’ at ya tomorrow, have a great Sunday also!

Half full or Half empty?

I guess it would depend on what frame of mind you are in at that time.  But if you looked back at the overall, would you see your glass as half full or half empty; optimist or pessimist; Pooh Bear or Eeyore?

If I take this literally, like my mind sometimes does, if the glass was down and I knew there was more of what I was drinking … I’d be half full.  If I knew there was none left of what I was drinking, then I’d be half empty .. with a bummer added to it.  Much like the coffee I’m drinking.

What makes your life full and what makes your life empty?

What makes you laugh and what makes you cry?

I really do want to know … as I am curious about you.  Yes, you reading my little blog that babbles on and on.

In my stillness this morning there were so many things brought to mind.  People I still had hurtful feelings toward.  People that made me mad; that hurt me; that, I felt, did me wrong.  It was interesting in a Rod Serling kind of way, as their faces were brought forward, like the pictures at the start of the old Twilight Zone TV series.  Some came into full view, others were off in the peripheral.  However, these were the ones that my heart needed to deal with.    Has that ever happened to you? 

I know I cannot live a full life, until I deal with my past hurts;  My past ignorings;  My past resentments.  And dog on it … I want a full life, even at 50, soon to be 51, I want a full life, full of abundance, grace and mercy.   I want to feel alive!  Some of you are much younger than I … can you say your life is full?

So back to the question, what makes your life full?  That high paying job?  That new trailer and boat you have in storage?  Or that new car sitting in your garage?  Or that big screen TV you are watching the football game on?  Or that big house you are living in?  Does that make your life full … or … does that bind you in chains?   A better way of asking, is it an asset or is it a liability???

If you own these things free and clear … that is great, you are one of the few in this world.  If you make payments on these things monthly, then it is a liability, because it keeps you in chains having to make payments over and over again.  Notice how when the balance gets down or you just payoff something, what do you do?  Go out and buy something else.  Usually that’s another big purchase item, that goes into payments and you are bound again by a new link in the chain. 

As for that high paying job … how many hours a week do you work?  How much time do you spend with you family and/or friends, what have you missed because of work?  Is this an asset or a liability in your life?

As you go through your life doing the same thing over and over, hoping to get a different result, what happens?  The chain grows by leaps and bounds and you are being choked.  Eventually crushed as is happening right now in this economy.  All of us are being choked and crushed by the weight of the length of our chain.  So is your life full or is your life empty?

Back to my next question, what makes you laugh?  What truly makes you laugh?  I mean the real gut jiggling tear making laugh?  Have you done that lately?  Do you remember the last time you had that kind of laugh?

What makes you cry?  Have you cried lately?  Has your heart broke over something that has absolutely nothing to do with you?  We all know what a broken heart feels like when someone rejects us or leaves us … but have you had that same feeling in your heart when something happens to someone else?

So, is your life full or is it empty?  If your life is full you have the freedom to truly experience the good and the bad of your neighbor/fellow human being.   That would include their joy and their sadness.  It would include their triumphs and their failures, even if you don’t even know them.

If your life is empty, your world is empty.  You don’t have anything to look forward to but the same old everyday routine.  Get up, go to work/school, go home, go to bed and start your day again.  Day after day, month after month, year after year.   Joining in someone’s triumphs … yeah yeah, yippee, hoorah … now leave me alone.  Joining in someone’s failures … yeah, yeah,   they must have deserved it or I knew that was going to happen.  

Have you noticed, those that have all those brand new toys that come out on the market are only excited about them until the newness wears off.  Then it is off to the next new thing.  The next new thing could be a new significant other, a new computer game, a new house, a new car, a new boat, a new piece of jewelry … and the list goes on and on.  Look at these people … would you say their life is full or is it empty?  Do they care about their fellow man?  Do they feel … anything.  Are they so self-absorbed that they can’t wait to talk to you so they can be the center of attention?   Full or empty?

Are you this person?  Are you a glimpse of this person?  I think we all would be lying if we said no.  Because this is what the world is, self-absorbed, self-gratifying, and self-sufficient.  In other words … me, me, me, it’s all about me!!  It’s sad to know this is how our thinking is in this world.  Fooling us into thinking our life is full when in reality it is empty and full of darkness.

What comes out of your mouth comes from your heart.  I’ll say it again, what comes out of your mouth comes from your heart.  So think about this, what you say and how you say it … does it taste bitter.  If you were on the receiving end of what you say, is it a sucker punch, a jab or a full blown knockout punch?    What comes out of your mouth comes from your heart … think about it … what’s in your heart?   Is it full or is it empty?  Is there light or is there darkness?

 

 

It’s like going home again

I missed posting yesterday because I joined a small group at church last night, obeying the pounding on my heart.  I am so glad I did.  I saw and hugged so many people!  I loved it!  They even teased me saying I was there in the flesh and not on facebook. 

He really knows what I needed, as the group I was invited into accepted me without any reservations.  They all have such a heart for God and a love for Jesus, but are going through struggles.  I almost said struggles of faith, but it really isn’t that.  More like the age old battle of good and evil.  One of the guys said it best when he commented about the battle going on in our world and in ourselves between good and evil. 

I was reminded that satan is angry.  He is frantically trying to get as many souls as he can, because he knows his time is short.  The enemy of our souls will stop at nothing to put a wedge between us and our Lord God. 

Sharing our personal trials within our group, it was clear that the stronger our passion for the Lord is, the harder the battle was being fought inside and around us.  Litteral me could see the angels fighting the demons. 

I just have to keep my eyes on the Lord.  When we are judged on that final day, I would like to actually hear the Lord say, “this one is mine.”   Something He says often when satan tries to condemn me in front of my Father.

If you feel the worldly chains binding you with anger, depression, fear, frustration, resentment, pride, arrogance, infidelity, lust, envy, unforgiveness … or whatever is of this world … I hope you know there is hope.  There is a way to break those chains and be free.   If you want to know how, ask someone who has a passion for the Lord.  If you don’t know of someone close to you, ask me, I would love to share His word with you, pray with you or pray for you.

Happy Veterans Day

All of you Veterans present and past, thank you for your sacrifice to be away from family and friends. 

To all Marines, Happy Belated Birthday, Semper fi !!

Happy Hump Day

Woohoo – Friday for me … yippee!!

Such a breeze

I’m so glad today worked out better than expected.  It was steady enough all day and I didn’t run out of things until 3:50pm … of course I made sure to get there before 7:30am.  Even with getting there so early, it was a good day.

Not much else new … just getting ready to watch Dancing with the Stars.  Can’t wait to see all of them perform.

Yesterday, hubby and I watched the recoded Two and a Half Men from a week ago.  I laughed so hard … I’m glad to see the writers of this show have continued to keep it fresh and funny, even with adding another character into the mix. 

Well, time for the Two and a Half Men reruns … It’s how I wind down from the day.  Y’all have a good evening.

 

Happy Sunday everyone!!

God’s been knocking, … yeah, let me rephrase that … POUNDING on my heart this week.  I haven’t been to church in a very long time.  He’s pulling me back with several things that have happened over the last couple of days.  The knocks I’ve been kinda ignoring, however, the POUNDING with the cop’s door buster is pretty hard to ignore. 

I have always loved the story of Jonah … LOL … maybe because I am so much like him.  It’s good to know He still loves and wants me even though I’ve been in defiant mode.

What a beautiful day!

I was expecting a storm and clouds and cold … but as usual, the weather in the Sierra’s cannot be predicted.  The sky this morning was the color blue like at the top of my computer screen.  The air was nice and crisp and I remained inside.   LOL … I know, I sould have gone outside and done something, but instead I watched some training videos, etc.

This is going to be a lazy weekend.  Monday can go one of two ways … breeze right through or become an absolute disaster!  It will definately be quiet.  The office manager and her husband are on vacation.  The salesman had an opportunity to watch the 49ers play this weekend with a season ticket holder.  Guess which one he chose!  So it’s me and one of the owners left at work on Monday.  HAH  is it too early to start drinking?

What are y’alls plans for Thanksgiving?  I invited my Vegas sis up, but it turns out her hubby has to work half a day on turkey day and all day on Friday.  Bummer … if weather is good and the pass is open, maybe we can make a quick trip to the bay area.   However, that is still several weeks away and who knows how I’ll feel then.

 Hope you all have a great Saturday … I’m going to stop before my jibber jabber becomes wry.

 

Happy Birthday, India!

My belle is now a mom, okay step-mom, but in my family there are no steps!   But a mom to a beautiful eleven year old.  She’s tall like her dad and when I spoke with her the other day, there was a glimpse of my daughter in her.  LOL … funny how that works … even though you are part of a blended family, there are still things in you that can rub off on them.

My Belle doesn’t ever plan on having any children from her own body, but … if she did, oh my they would be cuties!

So, Happy Birthday to my oldest grand-daughter!  I hope you have a super duper day!

Happy Birthday, Belle!

Is it really possible that thirty years ago I was told by my doctor, instead of checking out of the hospital, which I had been in for a week, he had scheduled surgery to get her out.  

Wow, that was an experience, being 20 years old, my husband at the time was at work and I was in the hospital not allowed visitors, except for him and my mom.  I had no idea that was doc’s orders.  Turns out my blood pressure was up, I had toxemia and since I would not stay off my feet and take it easy, the doc admitted me into the hospital.

They would take my blood pressure every 15-30 mintues.  One day I was watching a movie with a boxing kangaroo.  It was exciting – of course, anything would be exciting when you have to lay in bed and only getting out to use the bathroom.  Just that small bit of excitement, raised my blood pressure.  I was surprised they didn’t take the TV from me also.

A week later, my blood work and all my other tests were starting to look better.  The doc had said if things kept up, he would probably send me home, with the promise that I was on bedrest.  Unfortunately, my tests didn’t stay  good.  I took a turn for the worse and my poor baby was getting the brunt of it.  So, he scheduled an emergency C-section.  I told them I had to call my husband, so they brought me a phone (oh yeah, they took the phone away from me also) and had to leave him messages, since he was working at the jail and he wasn’t near a phone. 

All of this happened so fast.  I remember being in the O.R. getting the shot in my back to numb me .  That was the hardest thing, having a huge belly and being asked to curl myself into a ball so they can get between my vertebrae … LOL … that had to be interesting as it took three of them to pull my head one way and the other pulling my legs toward my head, the third giving me the shot.  But they accomplished the job. 

Since I was still a month away from my due date, the baby hadn’t dropped.  The doc had his intern assisting.  She was a very small skinny thing and she had to push on my stomach to get the baby to drop.  I felt so bad for her, she had the hardest part.  Finally … the baby was born.  They let me see her for a quick minute, then she was rushed off to be cleaned and all.

After that, I was in and out of  lolla land.  I remember opening my eyes and seeing everyone in my room.  Next time I opened them, it was my mom and husband.  Then I opened them again, and I was alone.  LOL …. I have no idea what the time span was, but it was pretty funny, in my brain.  

 Once I was alone, the nurses came in and I needed to sign papers so they could take the baby to the neonatal (sorry for spelling) clinic as she was too premature for their women’s hospital.  My foggy brain didn’t know what to do, and since I couldn’t read the words, I made the nurse tell me exactly what I was signing.  After my shaky signature, the paramedics wheeled my new baby in so I could see her before we were separated. 

I’m assuming they had spoke to my baby’s dad, since I was still in a fog for what seemed like 2 days.  My family was allowed to visit, now that the baby was born and my vitals, blood, fluids and all were starting to return to normal. 

I was finally discharged and my husband brought me to the other hospital where the baby was.  We get to her plastic bassinet and he’s unplugging all these wires.  I started to freak … what the heck was he doing … only to be told that  they were only monitors and nothing life supporting.  I finally get to hold my beautiful daughter.

So Happy Birthday, my Belle!!  I wish you a wonderful day today!