An ending to a crap day. Don’t ya just love those? I went to the eye doc for a check up. I’ve been a bit disappointed as my right eye is still blurry even with my new glasses. So he says my cataract has grown. I may need to have that surgery. I have to go to his office in Carson because he has the scanner at that office. So … I’m so friggin’ thrilled I could throw a nice heavy rock through my window, just to hear the glass break! In my mind, I’m already breaking every thing in sight, including the televisions. I’m mad, sad, scared and disappointed. Aren’t you glad you are not me?
Sometimes I think to myself … Lord, you can come anytime, I’m ready to be done with this body. Then I think of my grand-babies and know I”m not ready to leave them. This past week was one of those times when I was ready for Him to come.
Something new and exciting for me … Wet Macular Degeneration … for information on this, click here. I’m not sure how I feel about it and I’m not thrilled there is no cure, but I’m thankful there is something they can do to try and slow down the progression of the vision loss.
I found out on Thursday afternoon that I had this and the doc wanted to get me in the next day to get the testing done right away., however, his and my schedule just wasn’t going to work. I’m not thrilled there is a week wait, but then again, I need the week to prepare myself. I’ve gone through all the normal initial reactions and now I’m slowly getting to acceptance. It is, what is it and with God’s grace and guidance, strength, comfort and peace, I’ll get through this. There have been times I’ve been sad, angry, frustrated and plain ticked off, but I’m working through it.
Thursday is the day I go through 2 hours of testing so my eye doc can determine the next plan of action. Prayers are welcome and I’ll keep y’all posted.
Do you all know what day it is?? Normally it would be the income tax deadline, however, this year it is April 17th. But still … as usual … I’ve waited until today to do the lovely paperwork. Why do I wait so long? Because it never fails, I have to pay at the end of the year, which really ticks me off. I always hear about people getting really great refunds, etc. What the heck is their secret?? They must be way better record keepers than I am! Yes, I would like some cheese with my whine, Thank you very much!!
Of course, I could cook up great deductions, etc … however, that wouldn’t be right and besides, I would be the one that got caught! So, I play by the rules and get (blanked) every year. I really dislike this time of year!
I’m feeling sort of better. Throat doesn’t hurt as much, it’s just irritated as my sinuses keep draining. Fourth day of antibiotics and one would think I would be feeling great! Yeah, not quite the case, but I am ssssoooo ready to go back to work. Daytime TV is not entertaining! The only things worth while watching are the NCIS reruns.
Well, I stopped in to rant and rave … I guess I’ll sign off. I need to do the dishes. Oh goody!!
Happy Sunday, y’all!
I’m sure most of you have heard by now that there was a shooting at IHOP in Carson City. Why this person started his shooting spree is not known, but he now faces his maker for this senseless act. Four people are now dead, 3 of which were National Guard. There were five of them eating at this restaurant. There were many others injured.
The church I belong and work, sits in the middle of Carson Valley, so half way between Carson City and the town where I live. It has shaken our church family as there was a church family member and their extended family eating at the restaurant. Thankfully they were not injured, physically, however, mentally will be an image, memory and sounds only God can erase, especially from the children’s minds.
I ask for prayers for our small community. For healing to all those in that restaurant who were injured one way or another. For comfort and strength to the families of the dead and the injured. For extra comfort for the shooter’s family and friends, especially their parents. I cannot imaging what I would be feeling if one of my children or grandchildren went on a shooting spree.
So prayers for all of us in this small area to somehow move past this and images erased from those who were there.
This morning I was mad. I was so mad I could feel the anger bubbling and the resentment building that I wanted to just explode and scream and yell. Knowing that isn’t what Jesus would do, I sat and gave it all to God, my anger, my yelling, my madness, my resentment. I feel so much better and the red I was seeing is fading away. I’m pretty happy about that as my throat is sore and yelling and screaming isn’t something that would do me good.
When I went to the doc on Tuesday about my sore throat, I asked him about my hip. I’m not thrilled about his diagnosis. With the symptoms I gave him, turns out I have Sciatica. Basically, a nerve is being pinched, because my disc in my lower back is protruding out. I’m supposed to stay off my feet as much as possible. If it doesn’t calm down, it will eventually need surgery. The minute he said the “S” work, I decided to find alternative help.
Yesterday I went to the chiropractor. He put me on the decompression table, which is a traction table. It really felt good and soon I felt circulation in my feet … which I had no idea I was lacking. After that he adjusted my back and neck. I have to go through several treatments and I’m hopeful that it will relieve the problem. He also gave me an ice pack, which I am to use as often as possible.
My GP gave me antibiotics for my throat. It isn’t on fire like it was, but it is still sore. So I just want to sit here and eat my sorrows away. Probably not a good thing, but getting comfort from food is my downfall!!
I guess I had better get the hubby up, so he can go to the eye doc. Y’all have a great Thursday. I’ll be going back and forth between the couch and the bed with my trusty ice pack and glass of water.
Those of you that comment or read my wacky thoughts are a big part of my virtual world and I wish you all a wonderful day today!
I know I’ve been scarce on my postings. Not a whole lotta stuff going on from this side of the computer. So, let’s see what comes out of these fingers today.
Last week I had to work all week. Our salesman’s father had fallen and was having major health issues. So our salesman flew to Texas to help and take care of what needed to be done. He was away all last week, so I was to help in the office. I know how tough this was for the salesman, as they’ve told him that his father now has alzheimers. He’s had to move his dad into a nursing home as he no longer can care for himself. Recently our salesman lost his mom. His dad and mom were married over 60 years. It’s wierd how when a couple have been together that long and one dies, the surviving spouse usually goes within a year. I wonder why that is.
Our oldest daughter will be giving birth to our new grand-daughter in March. That is so exciting! We can’t wait to see pictures!!
Our middle daughter will be running a marathon in Las Vegas, also in March. That is so exciting also. Since hubby has to take a class in Vegas that same weekend, I may check out the route and see if I can go stand there and cheer her on.
Our son is driving to Vegas in April, for his half sister’s wedding and bringing the grandbabies. We are going to try and drive down so hubby can see the grandbabies. He hasn’t seen them in a couple of years.
Somewhere before all this I need to get the front brakes replaced. HAH, all it takes is money. I sure wish this money tree in the backyard would start growing!!
Something we’ve had to come to grips with is that if we cannot afford to go somewhere, then we can’t go. We end up missing alot of what our children and our grandchildren are going through, but we see them with the pictures that are posted. People think we don’t care or that we care only for one more than the other, which is just a bunch of horse crap!! We are parents and grandparents and we care for each and everyone one of our children/grandchildren. We don’t live close to any of the kids, so trying to attend a special event is a major event for us. So to those that think poorly of us for not being there for our children and grandchildren, I feel sorry for you. Until you’ve walked in our situation and circumstances, you have no right to judge. Besides, judging isn’t your job … It’s God’s!
Alrighty then … where did all this come from?!?! I guess it’s been building inside me for the past few days from a comment left by an extended family member. I read it and it sounded like a dig. The more I thought about it, the more it festered that how dare this person make a remark like that when they have no idea what we are going through. So I guess I had to get it all out here. Sorry guys, but thanks for reading through my rant as I feel so much better now. And hey, it’s MY BLOG and if I want to rant and rave … I can … HAH!
LOL - welcome to a Tim Burton’s version of Valentine’s Day!!
I guess I’ll go root around in the fridge and see what there is to eat. I may have to dig up some coins for chocolate! Chocolate, the all over feel good remedy!
How do I describe my boss … let’s say he’s similar to Steve Carrell’s character in The Office as he’s clueless. I work for a narcissist and a pathological liar, which makes for roller coaster work days. Those of us in the office that answer the phones spend the majority of our work day apologizing for his behavior and careless operating procedures. Oh wait, what am I saying … there are no operating procedures, it’s his decission, his way, it doesn’t matter what the customer or anyone else asks for.
His standard answers are: “NO!” “We’ll get there when we get there!” “We’ve tried to do this job 10 times and they are never ready! So now they have to wait!!” “We’ve tried to do this job and no one is around! So now they’re out of luck!!” ”Not gonna happen!” ”I don’t care!” “Tell them you can’t find me!” “We need to raise our prices! Everyone esle is!” ”I’m on the phone!!!” “Don’t bother me, Woman!!” “What do you want?”
These comments we get on a daily basis. As of January, 2011, I will have been there 11 years. Some have been there 20+ years. I’m still trying to figure out, why this person is one of my bosses.
I work for a window, glass and shower subcontractor. When you want a job done, isn’t it wise to schedule a job BEFORE the crew is sent out? Oh yeah AND call the customer first TO SCHEDULE THE JOB so they will be there or can make arrangements to let you in? Well, in the real world that is usually how things work.
However, in my boss’ world, he will dish out the work orders, to his crew – NOT SCHEDULE ANY OF THEM – then gets upset when the customers are not there and the guys bring the orders back not completed. Which always leads to this comment, “We’ve tried to do this job 10 times and they’re never ready!”
He wonders why we don’t get window jobs anymore. He’ll deliver windows WITHOUT calling. He’ll drop them off at the job. Or if he calls, he’ll let it ring a couple of times and hang up, that way he can say, “Well, I called them!!” Which usually means the office staff will then have to hear from the customer, “What Moron delivers windows without letting me know? I’m not at that job! I hope all those windows are still there!!”
I think you get a glimpse of what we deal with. Since business is down and what work we do have, he keeps them in piles. As we do not have work orders in the computer, we have to physically search for them in the many places they might be. Most of the time, they are on his desk, that is, after he says, “Nope, I’ve never seen that!”
Yesterday, he was out working in the shop driving the shop foreman crazy. Then when he got tired, he went back to his office to get on his cell phone to talk to his buddies around the country. While he was on his cell phone, which isn’t hooked up to the main phone system, so I cannot tell he’s yacking, a customer came in to ask when he could reschedule a job that we couldn’t do. I called upstairs to ask and was met with, “I’m on the phone!!!”
Then I said, “Can you just answer,” and with that I hear the office phone go flying. Now mind you, the upstairs is an office made out of the loft area. So there are some things one can hear from downstairs. I looked at the customer and said, “Can I get back to you on that, since he’s thrown his phone across the room?” I got his phone number so I could get back with him. I think that was the straw that broke my back. I was so mad! It took everything I had to sit in my chair and not march upstairs to tell him off. I should have told him to start behaving like an owner of the company instead of a disgruntled employee!! Which may be what I’ll say to him, the next time he throws a tantrum!
Yeah, I can feel a knock down, drag out fight brewing in our office. If it isn’t with the two owners, it’s going to be the office manager and this owner. Or who knows, it may be all of us!
Welcome to … a day in the life of our office. Ready for a good laugh?? Not two weeks before, did he give the office manager and the salesman the speech on how we need to give the best customer service we can. LMAO – when they told me what he said, I looked at them and said, “Really! Did you tell him to just turn that finger back at himself?!?!”
So how was your Friday??
From a total stranger or distant acquaintance would I expect this, but from a family member to put us on ignore, really sets off the rage-o-meter!
Yeah, warning … ranting goin’ on here! Why do they even bother having a cell phone if they won’t answer it or even reply to a text message. Is it so hard to say, yes or no?? I mean come on, you are an adult and you can say, yes or no … it doesn’t matter, just make a decision so we can get on with ours!!! ARGH!!
Common courtesy … answer your damn phone or text!!!
Well, at least I made it to August before these Hoity Toity People got the better of me!
Thursday this, hmm, how can I put it nicely, … person with her snotty hoity toity attitude … calls our office because she needs her screens rescreened. I mentioned that she could bring them in and will save her from an extra fee for us to go into her area (almost to Truckee) to pick them up. She thought about it and said that she didn’t think they would fit in her car and decided that she would pay the extra money. I told her I would call her back as I didn’t know when we would be in her area.
I asked the scheduler (one of the owners) and dang, if we weren’t in her area that day. So I called her back and let her know so she could leave the screens out and our guy will pick them up and bring the back to the shop. She asked when she’d have them back and I told her probably not until the next week as I wasn’t sure when we would go back to her area. I told her if she wanted them sooner, she could pick them up at our office. So we set it up to bring them back and drop them off at the gate house into her area.
Friday she calls, it was so hot in the house and she can’t open her windows can she get them on Friday. I then told her that our screen person didn’t come in and I would have to ask if we could get them done for her. However, there is no way we could bring them back, she would have to come and get them. She said if we couldn’t get all the screens done (6 of them) she just needed 1 or 2 of them, which were marked 1 & 2 and drop off the rest next week, however, why does she need to pay a trip charge if we are in the area dropping them off. So I had to explain the trip charge which was less than what we normally charge, which in hindsight was not enough! She wanted to continue to argue and I told her I’d let her know when I asked one of the owners.
When one of the owners came back I asked him if he’d rescreen them. After he ranted and raved about how he doesn’t do screens, I then told him that if we couldn’t get them all done, then she needs 1 & 2. But I asked if he would do them all to get her out of our hair. As he, under duress, started working on them, I walked back into the office.
After a few hours, he tells me to call her and let her know that her ^&)$%$ screens will be ready and she can start heading this way. Before I had a chance to call, she calls us and wants to know what the status of her screens were. I told her that he was working on all of them so she could start our way to pick them up. (All the while I was thinking, hmm, did she buy a new car since I spoke to her yesterday, as she didn’t think her car would hold the screens?) She then asked for directions and I proceded to tell her, then she cuts me off and tells me she has GPS. I said okay, but the last person that used his GPS, the GPS told him he could go straight which would have made him go through a building. So she sighs and takes the directions, getting them all mixed up, which I have to tell her again, slower, so she could write them down. Not hard directions, coming from California, second stop light turn right. One and a half blocks down on the left is a two story building and we are the maroon door.
An hour or so she calls and says she’s having a concierge service (AKA a handyman/caretaker) pick up the screens. He arrives around 1pm takes them back to her as this was part of his interview process for her to hire him. (Poor guy, I’d run fast and hard, because if she paid him a million bucks, it still wouldn’t be worth it!!)
Around 3pm she calls and instead of thanking us for doing her screens she’s bitching that the screen material was black and not gray and she wanted us to fix it. She couldn’t believe if we didn’t have the right material why would we bother doing them!! Then she says one of the screens leaves a gap and bugs will get through. I explained that we didn’t do anything to her frames, they are the same thing as what was given. All we did was change the mesh. As for the color, they were the same color as what she had. Again she’s bitching at me wanting it fixed right now. As I explained over and over again, which she didn’t want to hear … I finally blew! Not a pretty sight when I blow up at a customer! I admit, I lost it and told her that if she wasn’t happy, then she could take her business to the shop in Truckee and did my famous slam the phone down. (We know the person in Truckee and he would have said “F.U. B*tch, and hung up) I know that wasn’t nice of me, but being Friday afternoon, I was on my last nerve and dang if she wasn’t chomping away at it!
She called back and I put her through to the owner, who did her screens. She wanted him to come out and look at the screen that had the gap so it could be fixed. He proceded to tell her that if we came out, he’d charge her a $100 trip charge. Of course she complained about me, but I really didn’t care. I’ve dealt with her hoity toity attitude for 2 days and was frankly sick and tired of it.
She proceded to tell him that she was interviewing for a concierge on her property, which my boss said, oh you mean handyman. She corrects him and says, no a concierge. So the boss tells her to send the screen back with the handyman and he’ll fix it.
The boss comes in and tells me that she was real disappointed with me and I told him, that she could kiss my little brown ass!! He said he’d pay me ten bucks if I called her and told her that! Argh … Of course she didn’t mention the wanting to waive the trip charge. I had $30 and the boss told her $100. And of course, she didn’t bitch about the color of the mesh. I asked my boss if she did and told him what she said. My boss starts yelling, it’s the right color, her charcoal mesh have been faded from the sun. If she wants to see it, I still have it in the trash. She lives in an area where the houses are 4000 – 8000 square feet. Is she too cheap to turn the A/C on at night … what the heck … blah blah blah. *sigh*
I just looked at him and said, I know.
Don’t you hate it when you get into that mood? Darkness just consumes me when I’m there. I had awful dark thoughts and it took all day to pull out of it. What triggered it? Pride, insecurity, anger, sadness.
Why pride? Because it was all about what I wasn’t getting. What I wasn’t doing. Yeah, it was “all about me!”
Which led to insecurity – I’m not worthy to be among the other moms today. I’m not worth anything to my children. They don’t care about me. No one cares.
Which led to anger – I was getting mad that hubby was still in bed and was still in bed until 2pm or so. I was getting mad that he didn’t have anything planned for mom’s day. I was getting mad that he doesn’t have any initiative to think ahead to plan something special for the day or any special day for that matter.
Which led to sadness and feeling sorry for myself.
I did send him out for cake last night. That is after I made dinner!
Yes, I have issues, but then again, who doesn’t. I keep making excuses that he stays up all night, that’s why he sleeps so late. I make the excuses that he still doesn’t feel well, and that’s why he can’t sleep. I get tired of making excuses! I get tired of being the one who tries to keep things together. I just get plain tired!
So this tired person had a slight melt down yesterday. But today is a new day and I’m feeling better.