Shoulda, coulda, woulda

I stayed inside yesterday NOT doing what I should have, just being a couch potato.  Although I did walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes while watching the last recorded Grey’s Anatomy.   After that, I was on my bum … I just couldn’t get motivated to go anywhere.

So today … the wind is blowing away … hopefully it will blow the clouds over and we won’t get another storm.  If March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb … what does it mean if it is opposite?  It’s supposed to be spring … my favorite season.  Oh well …

I’m watching Semi-Homemade … looks like way too much work for me … I’m not a cutsie table setter, party themer or whatever.  Yeah, I’m a bit too much of a “bull in a china shop” for that.  The really bad thing is when I go to these cutsie little parties … the first thought going through my mind is … “Does this person not have anything better to do?”  Bad of me, yes … but, what can I say.  Alway have been, always will be a “Tomboy!”

What to do, what to do

I’m testing the waters of two different home businesses.  I usually jump in with both feet and then find out I can’t swim.  So this time I’m being cautious, maybe to the point of being too cautious.  But I’m still considering them anyway.

I know with the future so bright … hahaha … I need to get something going for extra income and our retirement.   It will all be figured out eventually, I just have to quit frettin’ about it.

So, how has everyone been?  Not much new on this home front.  Our daughters are graduating from college in May, one in Utah, the other in Vegas.  Graduations are a week apart.  So that means we get to travel again … yay!  We did have a church seminar we were going to go to in Granite Bay, but we’ve cancelled that trip so we could go to the graduation.  However, next year, come hell or high water, we’re going to Thrive, even if I have to go alone.

Monterey is also having Spirit West Coast … that would be awesome to go see, all my favorite groups performing in a 3 day outdoor concert.  Plus I love the Monterey area … I’m not sure if we will go to this, it is the last few days of July.   We may have to just sneak down to Monterey sometime before Memorial Day so I can get my ocean fix.  Hubby hasn’t been there in 10 years and it was a quick trip through the town on our way back to the midwest from our son’s bootcamp graduation.  I was there several years ago with my sister.  My aunt had a memorial service for my uncle on the beach.  It was full of mixed emotions, great to see family, sad for the reason.

Today’s weather looks pretty good, hopefully I’ll get out in it … but I have so much to do inside … ugh … so I’m back to … what to do, what to do … LOL

Quizes/FaceBook

I spend alot of my Facebook time doing their quizes.  Just for the heck of it and to see what car  best describes me (Corvette)  or what color is my aura (yellow) or what star wars character am i (Hans Solo) … plus doing the know-it-all quizes are pretty fun, especially when I challenge hubby and one of his friends to a know-it-all quiz.   I also love to challenge those on the bowling in facebook.  Unfortunately, I’m as inconsistent in virtual bowling as I am in the physical one.

I have a lil race car that earns me points and CO credits and a pet frog named Kwal-E that I play with every day.  I thought I was clicking on a bear when I named him, when it went to my screen, it turned out to be a frog.  It hasn’t turned into a prince yet.  Darn!

Hubby, one of his old friends/co-worker and I have been talking back and forth about the old armored car days and all the trouble they used to get into.  It has been quite interesting reading those stories.  I knew about most of them, but I came into the picture during his last year of hubby working for the armored car company.  But, that’s a whole other story …

I’ve friended cousins as far away as Hawaii and as close as the bay area.  I’ve friended high school classmates and friends.  I’ve also friended a neighbor that lived next door to me while I was growing up.  The memories of roasting a pig in my back yard was brought up as well as running up and down the streets barefoot and care free.  What happened to those days?  That really brought back a flood of memories of all kinds of things we did as kids.  I find there are times I miss those days, but it’s nice to know they are still in my brain somewhere.

I also enjoy all the photos of family and friends.  It is so nice to see pics of everyone, especially since we don’t live close by.  Children grow so fast and their features change what seems daily.  They give me great joy looking at their smiling faces, even if they are covered in cupcake!

I’ve friended my sister, children and newphews/nieces … it’s pretty fun reading their thoughts.  Although, they can all read mine … lol … is that a good thing?

It’s still nice to write my thoughts and feelings here in wordpress.  I’m anonymous to a point, most of you know who I am and where I live and some of you are friends and family … but … I still have that sense of anonymity and can express what I’m feeling, whether it be good, bad or ugly.

I used to worry about someone reading what I wrote and being offended … but I don’t worry about that anymore.  I write for me, to get in print what is occupying my mind and making it impossible to do anything else.  I have to vent somewhere and here is as good a place as any.

I thank all of you that brave those posts of rant/frustration/hurt mixed in with glee/confusion/scatteredness.  I welcome any and all comments.  Don’t be shy, just let it out … I do!

I want to be this relaxed

Natasha Richardson

I was so saddened to hear about Natasha.  My heart and prayers go out to Liam, their boys and all the family. 

It makes one think about mortality.  One minute there enjoying life and the next a series of events that take a turn for the worse.  My heart breaks for all of them. 

This tragedy has affected me so different compared to other famous people..  I don’t know why … maybe it’s because I’ve enjoyed her movies along with her husband’s movies  …. and I keep thinking about her boys and how they had  a mom and the next day, their mom’s gone. 

It makes you realize that you have to enjoy and cherish every moment of those you care for, because, we may not be around the next day.

This puts my life in perspective.  Even though I was struggling the other day with a relationship, God has really hit me over the head with the way I was thinking … amazing how He always knows how to correct my way of thinking and smacking me in the head when I’m being selfish and prideful.

Happy St Patty’s day

If ya’ll go out and celebrate, make sure you have someone bring you home or take a cab or bus!

I’ve got class tonight, but I’m again sick, so, not sure if I’m going.  I may have enough energy to come home from work and curl up in bed.  I have to bumm a coupld of antibiotics from hubby until I get mine filled on Friday … how sad is that?   lol  Oh well.

Not much new around here, just frustrated with my Tuesday night class, I’ve been to 1 out of 3, tonight makes the 4th class and next week is the last one.  I’m not sure if I should just wait and start this class again or continue to feel bad about not making them.  Maybe they’ll have it again in the warmer months when I’m not continually sick.

Relationships

When do you say enough is enough?  When do you stop trying?  When do you just give up? 

Well, I’m there.   I don’t know what to do anymore.  I’ve tried to reach out and sometimes when we are together, it’s okay, a bit strained, but okay.  The rest of the time, my calls don’t get answered.  I don’t get any response back.  If we do talk, it’s usually a one word answer.  I get it, I’m bothering this person.

So … I’m done.  I’m done trying.  I’m done reaching out.  I’m done, because I don’t have it in me anymore to try harder than the other person is willing to try.  

It saddens me greatly because this person is one of my children.  It hurts deeply because it is one of my children.  It is probably my fault, I’m sure, but I can’t try anymore.  The ache inside is way too much to bare. 

So, my question to you is … when is enough, enough?  When do you stop trying?   When do you just give up?

How ya doin?

I trust you all survived Friday the 13th.  This last week was my short week and I sure was happy for that.  I have a short week next week, then a full one after that, since the office manager and her husband are going back east for their daughter’s graduation from Coast Guard bootcamp. 

Hubby’s been pretty sick.  He’s on another round of antibiotics.  He was outside all day for an abatement order.  It could have gotten pretty exciting, since the owner of the property made the threat to anyone that came onto his property was going to be shot.  So, needless to say, they took swat with them.   And, luckily the owner wasn’t on the property.   It was an all day process, since there was so much stuff, cars, buses, even a plane.  So much that after 8 hours, they still didn’t get everything off the property.  So, a possibility they will have to go back, just depends on the judge.

After being out in the cold, mud and wind, Thursday morning he was back to being sick.  It’s a good thing we had the doc’s appointment. 

As for me and my wierd things going on, the doc thinks it’s my stomach.  However, since these symptoms are also heart problem symtoms, he wants to rule that out first.  Next Thursday I have  a stress test at the hospital.  This should be interesting.

More info on The Chopping Block

Here’s another site for the Henderson girls.

The Chopping Block

At 8pm tonight on NBC, this show starts it’s season premier.  Two of the contestants are daughters of one of our customers.  The names are Kelsey and Vanessa Henderson, click here for their bio .  It’s pretty exciting, especially for their mom, since Kelsey is only 22 yrs old and is a chef at one of the hotels in LA with major benies.  Plus she became Madonna’s chef, when she was in town.  For 22, that’s a pretty big accomplishment.

I know the head person will be an arse to the contestants so it will be interesting to watch. 

Well, I’ve got to get ready for work … this is my Friday … hooray!  I’ll talk at y’all later.