How will the week end?

It continues to be a really crazy week.  I am not sure what in the heck is going on!  My work computer caught a virus, Monday morning, it wouldn’t do anything, so the company that does our IT work had to pick it up.  Happily they were able to hook it all back up  today at my office with all of my programs in working.  Yay, since I had 3+ years of window quotes in the programs.  I’m keeping my fingers crossed that it will continue to work and we don’t have any more problems.

It was a pain in the rear to be without my computer for a few days.  Everything I put into the computer, had to be hand written.  I hope tomorrow I will have all the hand written data entered.  That will be nice. 

I’ve finally decided on the book I’m going to write, even if it is just for my family.  It’s going to be about my experience as caretaker for my oldest sister as she dealt with her breast cancer.  Don’t ask me why, but it came to me and now I just have to sit down and write it.

This weekend, besides the gathering at the place I mentioned in my previous post, our church is having an outreach in the park.  They have invited many people that are in need of food, etc., to the park for a BBQ and each person will leave with a bag of food.  It’s amazing how God is working through the church members to pull this off.  I am planning on going and helping do whatever they need me to do.  I just have to dress in long sleeves and pants, since the meds I’m on does freaky things to my skin when in direct sunlight.  I’m really anxious to get out there and serve.

I’m really not sure what is in store for tomorrow.  If it continues as with each day of this week, it will end up a doosy!  I had the pleasure of listening to someone calmly chew my butt over something I had no control over.  All she wanted was someone to listen and I got to be that someone.  I’m so surprised I kept my cool and didn’t say a word.  LOL, when she was done, she said thank you and hung up!  Is it me or is anyone else having one of these types of weeks?

Well, next week is the finale of So You Think You Can Dance.  I hate to say it, but I’ve gotten attached to the last 10 dancers.  Hated seeing any of them get voted off.  I’m really glad they will be traveling the country and they will be in Reno as well as Sacramento … I’m going to have to try and get tickets. 

Well, I guess that’s it for tonight, it’s way past my bedtime and I need to go, before I sleep on this keyboard!  Nighty night ya’ll.  Hope you have a really good Friday!

And the wierdness continues

I took a screen out for a customer.  The SUV was pretty full so we had to put the screen across the seats, including the drivers.  There is a toddy sitting in her seat in the middle row and I had mentioned to the driver to hold onto the screen to keep it from moving and hitting the baby.  We both turned to look at the baby and here she is holding onto the screen and looking at us like, What the heck?  The driver and I burst out laughing.  Such a cute little face looking at uswith her hand up holding the screen.

Today hubby and I got invited to a gathering this weekend.  I know this person through work and they know hubby through his old job.  I would love to go, however, I’m a bit hesitant.  I know this person isn’t fond of people of color.  Since I’m brown, actually an American born Fillipina, I’m not sure how I’d be accepted.  There is a part of me that wants to go, just to see her reaction.  Yeah, I know, I’m bad that way!   I am totally surprised we were invited.  Hubby is on call, so we may or may not go, however, it would make for great water cooler discussion come Monday!

Wierd Day

Did anyone else have a wierd day today?  It was busy and absolute kaos today.  The street in front of our shop was being resurfaced, so the die hards are the ones that ventured into the office.  We even had a lunie toon come in.  Everyone was agitated and you could feel it hanging in the air.  Oh well.

So today, I made a conscience (sp?) effort to watch my diet.  I had a really really good couscous salad from the baker/deli behind us.  I may have to have it again tomorrow, but instead of fruit, I’m going to order the roasted veggies – they looked really good also!  It has taken me 4 days, but I’ve come to grips with my health problems and I’m am really trying to watch my diet, especially the animal protein and bad carbs.   I’m not feeling up to doing anything physical yet, so that will have to wait until after I feel a bit lighter on the feet.

My left leg is still hurting, not sure what the heck that’s all about but hopefully it will feel better once a few pounds have made it’s way off my being.

Tomorrow is my son’s birthday, so Happy Birthday Ry!  I hope you have a great day!  I can’t believe he’ll be 27 already.  I’m getting old! 

Well, ya’ll have a great evening.  I’m getting tired, so I think I’m going to make my way to bed.  Have a great evening all!

Trip to the Zoo

My son and his family went to the Omaha Zoo yesterday.  One of my favorite places to wander in Nebraska.  Here are some of their pics.

Whew!

I had my ultrasound this morning and the ultrasound tech didn’t see any clots.  YAY, GOD!!  Leg still hurts a little but mostly where she had to press hard to check the deep vein.  Possible what the doc was feeling in my calf got dissolved by the increase of my baby asprin.  At least we have a sense of relief.

A musical in church service?

Here’s a musical our church did one weekend at service … Enjoy 

For performance rights, script and soundtrack, go to www.kirstenwilson.net . 

It is so great to go to a church that enjoys having fun in addition to some great teaching.

That time of month!

I’m starting to dislike my monthly doctor visits.  As I write this, I’m thinking it is just as bad as the mother nature monthly visits!  (Sorry Guys!)

I had all kinds of good news today!  Granted a good portion of it is self-inflicted, however, the other part is my body rebelling.  I’ve been letting what he said sink in for a couple of hours and now I just have to get it off my chest.  So, excuse me for ranting.

Like I said, I am to blame for most of my health problems.  I’m overweight and I don’t watch my diet, especially since I have diabetes.  Plus the fact that I am not active!  My first bit of good news was that my blood sugar is still out of wack – HAH, go figure, I’m not watching my diet very well.  The next piece of good news is that my overall blood sugar test (A1C test) was just above a 7.  Granted a 7 isn’t the worst it could be however, it isn’t the best either.  He’d like to see it around 5-6.   The next great news was that my kidneys have more protein in them than they used to, which means my diabetes is starting to affect them.  If I don’t get my sugars under control and lose the weight, they will start getting damaged and unfortunately, there is no reversing the damage.  The last wonderful news is that I am having an ultra-sound on my calf this Saturday.  There’s a possibility that I have clots forming in my leg.  *sigh*

Will this be enough to kick my butt in gear … well, maybe.  I just have to go the the 5 stages first.  I think I’m still stuck in denial, heading towards the mad! 

Well, thanks for letting me vent.  I’m going to sulk in the corner now.  Hope ya’ll have a good night.

Hard Topics

Our church started a new series called, “Elephant in the Room”.  Last week the teaching was on divorce.  This week it was on abortion.  Our pastor had said that abortion affects everyone that was in that room, directly, indirectly, man or woman.  The surprising this is he was right.  You could sense everyone agreeing with him, even the grumpy men sitting in the corner. 

I know it has affected me as I went through this when I was a senior in high school.  I wanted to keep it, but my then boyfriend’s parents had other plans.  It all happened so fast that it was all over before I realized it.  The sad thing was my boyfriend at that time, had NO idea it happened, until he came to see me that night.  Our pastor talked about asking for forgiveness for the procedure, however, ALSO giving forgiveness to the ones who gave you no choice.  That was a V8 slap.  I didn’t think I had harbored any bitterness toward his parents, especially since it was so long ago, but in reality, after I thought about it, I did.  I could not think of them without a tinge a bitterness in my heart.  Because it did break my heart to have this done.  It did make me feel ashamed and unworthy. 

I’ll never forget their words to my parents, “I know we are Catholics and all, but this has to be done.”  They talked to my parents, I was at the clinic, his parents paid for it and it was done.  Funny how I don’t remember my parents words, but I can instantly recall his parents words.

Our pastor talked about this subject last year and it was a great relief to know I was forgiven.  But this year, he tweaked my heart even more to give foregiveness.  I had no idea I had that stored up in my soul.

So for those of you who have been affected by abortion, please, know God forgives and to search your heart to see if forgiveness needs to be given by you.  I know I feel so much better releasing what has been stored up in my heart for 32 years.

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Sorry for all the reposts, I wanted to transfer my thoughts from my Christian Blog Site, just in case they took me off the airwaves.  I haven’t posted in that site for a while and some of my posts there, certainly didn’t come from my brain, they actually came from my heart and I didn’t want to lose what the Spirit was saying.  I apologize for all my repostings.

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Scary in my head

bratsjourney | April 14, 2007 10:27

At a wedding shower, a friend in Christ said, “Don’t expect your spouse to read your mind.  It’s scary in my head and I wouldn’t expect my spouse to go there.” 

I thought about that comment and realized, it is also scary in my head.  Trying to verbalize what is in my head can be quite difficult.  Verbalizing not only to my spouse, but to my family as well.  I don’t want to blurt out what is on my mind, because my thoughts can be quite blunt, even if they are truthful.  So how does one say things that are truthful and not hurtful?  God tells me all the time, “Say it with love.  Say it the way you would want someone to say it to you!”

I have gone from the non-speaking angry spouse slamming things around to a woman spitting out the words in my head as arrows.  I am now learning, with God’s Grace, to compose what’s in my head with love before the words escape out my mouth. It is amazing how that four letter word can turn my scary thoughts into caring words that expresses what is on my mind.